I GOT MY PORT OUT YESTERDAY. IT WAS NOT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. I AM THANKFUL FOR THE TIME I HAD THE PORT BECAUSE IT SAVED MY VEINS FROM BEING OVER WORKED. ITS A LITTLE SORE TODAY SO I DID NOT GO TO WORK. TOMORROW IS MY LAST CHEMO TREATMENT. I AM VERY HAPPY ON ONE HAND AND MIXED FEELINGS ON THE OTHER. I KNOW I WANT TO LIVE AND I AM CHOOSING TO LIVE BUT IT WILL BE SCARY FOR A WHILE. AS LONG AS I AM IN THE MOMENT I FEEL ALIVE AND STRONG. WHEN I GET INTO THE FUTURE IS WHEN I GET SCARED. SO MY GOAL IS TO HAVE QUIET TIME EVERYDAY TO PRACTICE STAYING IN THE MOMENT AND LIVING A GREAT LIFE. I AM SO GREATFUL FOR MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS. WE HAD SUCH A GREAT TIME AT THE COAST THIS WEEKEND WITH EVERYONE. I HAVE SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR. LOVE, DEB